“It’s not hard to decide what you want your life to be about. What’s hard, she said, is figuring out what you’re willing to give up in order to do the things you really care about.”
― Shauna Niequist, Bittersweet: Thoughts on Change, Grace, and Learning the Hard Way
I have been looking through quotes that inspire me and mirror where I am at right now. This one mirrors some of what I am dealing with right now.
Living in Germany now I have been facing some very large decisions, “Do I stay here through the summer and work to extend my visa”? “Do I go home for the summer to work and then come back for a few months in the fall while taking classes online through my home university”? “Do I simply go home and continue my education at the university and not online”?
As with all major life decisions there are pluses and minuses to each option and not everyone will be pleased with the decision that I make. This is something that I must be OK with though, knowing that decisions I make are not going to please everyone.
A good question to ask right about now then is “Why should my decisions please everyone”? I mean they are my decisions and in the end it is only I who has to live with them. This does not mean that making major life decisions is easy, but it can make it easier.
So yep, I have been in the process of making large decisions about what to do next… here’s to thinking about what will make me truly happy and be the most beneficial to me and my life’s journey. I wish the best to everyone who is in this place in their lives… it is not always an easy place to be in, but an incredible adventure nonetheless.
An international food exhibition… We were there for eight hours just taking it all in… the sounds, smells, tastes, music, drinks, and people from all different places in the world =)
“Why do you go away? So that you can come back. So that you can see the place you came from with new eyes and extra colors. And the people there see you differently, too. Coming back to where you started is not the same as never leaving.”
― Terry Pratchett, A Hat Full of Sky
I already know that when it comes time for me to return back to the USA, I will see it differently. It will not be an easy return, full of bittersweet emotions, but when the time comes I will embrace it. The more that I branch out here in Berlin and Germany, the more at home I feel. I have fallen in love with another land, its people, and its culture.
I have come to the overwhelming realization that the people I know and love make a place so special to me, no matter where that is. Back in the USA there are many people who I miss dearly, they make up what I love and miss about my home there. When back there, I will have to adjust to a new perspective of the same area. Being here, I have adjusted to a new area. My life is a wonderful, continuous journey that has provided me and continues to provide me with the chance to grow as a person as I make new discoveries through living my life for me.
Well there you have it. I am living a “Denglisch” life. My brain does not even seem to be distinguishing between the two languages at moments, when I begin in one language and end in the other. Well at least I am learning. I am well over the phase of being too nervous to practice because I know I will make mistakes and I have moved onto the phase where I want to practice as often as I can… which while wonderful and good for me has me saying some funny things. Here is an example: earlier today while at a museum with a friend, and I wondered if he was hungry. In German you say, “Hast du Hunger?” (Have you hunger?) … that just sounds down right weird when literally translated but as I said my brain is being weird… so I said my whole sentence in English that time, but I did ask… Have you hunger? He just looked at me and smiled. haha… This past week at university, I had an interview in order to determine which language course I best belonged in based on my knowledge of the German language. I placed right out of A2 and right into B1. This is a true sign of my progress since I came here last semester knowing no German at all and know I am at the third level! I am also babysitting in German and practicing German on a most-weekly basis with a language partner. When I watch TV I only watch it in German and when I talk I do my best to stick to German. This is not always easy though, but it is so good for me. A language that used to sound so foreign that I could easily classify it as white noise has become wonderfully recognizable.I still have a lot of progress to make and a long way to go, but I am getting there… and I can see, hear and comprehend the progress and this is a fantastic feeling!
So to where I am at in my language learning process I give to you this song, which makes me laugh every time I hear it =)
Enjoy by clicking on the link below 🙂
I don’t know why I waited so long to begin my yoga practice again, but I did. I went back to a yoga class today since I don’t know when, definitely before I was in Germany! It was delightful. I left the class feeling like I could just skip my way home. The practice really put me in a positive mood! Today’s class was small, but so rewarding. I went with two of my friends and met a woman who just moved to Berlin from Croatia and the yoga instructor herself was also from Croatia! As the class progressed I could feel the tension in my shoulders melt away. I could also feel the smile on my face spreading all through me! – pure joy and happiness from my head to my toes – I left that class tonight feeling more confident than I have felt in a while. It was a reminder to me of how much I love yoga and how positive practicing yoga is for me!
I am really looking forward to more yoga classes and to spreading my own wings more and more here in Berlin and Germany.
“I am whole, complete and perfect” yoga always reminds me of that 🙂 I hope that everyone remembers that about themselves, “YOU are whole, complete and perfect ”